Worth to wait?

Today my friend suddenly gave me a fortune telling from tarot cards. And guess what, it made me want to kill my relationship right away.

First cards: How is my love life?
1. Past: White tiger drinking water: Hurting with many of incidents. Obsessed. (True)
2. Current: Turtle on the road: Going to nowhere. Can't decide to leave or stay. (True)
3. Future: Green dragon sneaking behind wall: Hard to trust in love. Want to try out but be afraid of getting hurt again. Or having secret lover.

Second cards: When will I get married:
1. First year: Waiting for nothing.
2. Second year: Lots of fighting.
3. Third year (29 years old): A chance of being married.
4. Forth year: Quarreling for facts of life.
5. Fifth year: Feeling distant.
6. Sixth year: Getting separated.
7. Seventh year: New page of life.

... Waiting 3 years for a marriage which will be ended anyway.
LOL

Secret lover

It's how people know about you. It's all just my talk. I don't mind it since secret means you're only with me, only I know. And that's all I've asked from you.

Please...

At time like this, you should be here by my side...
Tell me I've made right decision to give us one more chance.
Tell me, tonight I won't have to sleep alone...

I've been crazy of missing you.
I've been crazy without you.
Tell me you will make it up for me...