Today is my day

People aren't always good, or bad. But in certain circumstances, I can't see that fact well. Especially, their continuous behaviors cause such a chain in my brain.
I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say she's a friend. We hang out a lot since I'm alone here. Well, she leaves me by myself lots also. It's normal I know. But it isn't if that person calls you a good friend, or close friend. She borrows money to buy stuffs and hardly pays back in time when I'm short of money. She goes with other guys under my name. I don't want to spread rumors of her. But I can't hide my feelings either. Sometimes I just can't stand her. Typical Scorpion.

Another story for my living away from home, my roommates.
5 people in a room. 2 of them are super lazy. Never clean the room. Never. And also, when they start washing their clothes, no one else can do that. That's really annoying since we all have dirty clothes. It's summertime here, so every of us feels sweaty. And I don't even want to mention of dishes... the table is dirty everyday and they keep using my dishes as well.
Other 2 are ok to me. They don't like me sometimes but most of time, we are ok together.

Last night I got sick and the person who called me close friend, still went out with a guy when other 2 in my room, they ordered foods in house for me. I'm appreciated that a lot. They always say I don't need to do the housework all the time. But actually, I do it, not just for me, but also for them. Because I care of them also.

My most happy time of a day, so far, is when mom, Nicky and D call me. They keep me strong and study hard until I can be home. I really miss them a lot.

Living away from home teaches me lots of thing. How to deal with guys, how to blend it with others, how to appreciate family, love and true friends.

Fucking life here makes me believe in me more. And I know that, when I'm back to my department, I will run for the next promotion. Never ever I think of helping that girl again. Dad is right about people I work with. Can't never completely trust in anyone.

Life here is what I've missed

Life.
Since day 1 to day n of life.
I was always, most likely always, with my parents.
27 years of life.
And I still want to be with them.
I know I'm not really an adult like others.
I'm simply aging years by years.
That's why it's not so easy for me to live in a place where water isn't clean enough to be used wildly.
Never water costs me this much to use. It becomes daily cost.
Most of money spent (if not for those. . . persons) goes to water (and taxi).
And ... it's the nightmare for me when I'm having monthly pink days. LOL
I'm not complaining but it's a fact I'm facing for at least 3 months.

The limits of accessing in internet is another problem I have to stand.
Normally, it won't be a big problem to me. But it's different now since ..
Once again, I have a distant love.
Wonder why I always get stuck here and there in my relationship.

Mom is worried all the time. And she's spent lots of money to visit me. I wish I can tell her not to... It's a waste of money... My family condition isn't that rich to visit me that often.
I'm taking care of myself at the moment and I hope they can temporarily forget that I'm not 100% adult.

Just, a bit difficulties and some amount of time should be given to me, apart from family to learn all the basics of life. I've been over-cared and like Rio, I still don't know how to fly with my own wings.

Freedom is ahead and yet, I can't reach it by myself.







Sigh... wonder why he can love a girl like me.
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Foods here are not so bad. Not delicious at all but yeah, I can swallow.