Take a walk, baby

When everyone around me seems to have a place for their owns, a place that they do belong; I feel lost in our own house. Nothing matters, I keep repeating it everyday, as long as we can be together. I don't want to be alone and let the shadows of sadness eat my soul.
Everything seems to be fine. But after awhile we speak no word to each other. None of us seems to understand our minds. None of us seems to care what tumbles the peace.
Another day, has just gone. But I don't want to count how our happiness slips away in time line. Nothing can put us to sleep until we can find back our lullaby. What troubles you inside? What troubles me, honey?
You're always busy. Too busy to take a walk with me as we used to do.
Laying down next to you, hearing your breathing. It's the best moment of the day. While you're sleeping, I can just gently touch your face, can look at you closely and hold you for awhile. No more shouting, no more silent quarrel, no more crying for that moment.
I still just love you as I always do. But if only you have your little time walking with me to see how it's true...

Is it funny the way people love us?

I read a book... It had a sentence like this "Don't love me just because I'm good in bed."
It was kind of sad to realize, most of men love their women just because of sex and later, it was also the main reason for them to leave their women.
A night before Valentine's Day, one of my male friend had a personal message on his homepage like this "ok, i'll go ahead and say it now.......I FEEL SORRY FOR ALL YOU SILLY ASSHOLES WHO HAVE TO SPEND A BUNCH OF MONEY TOMORROW JUST TO HAVE SEX WITH SOME GIRL WHO YOU'RE DATING AND SHOULD BE ABLE TO HAVE SEX WITH ANYWAY! that will be all. thank you."
Is it everything must be about sex? Is that you fall in love with your girl just because of that?

It is happening like that, the way men treat women in my country. No one admits that fact but we all know. Many of my male friends are like that. And I can't do anything to stop it happening...

A truth of us.

Probably both of us haven't had enough rest. I feel tired sometimes, not just because of heavy workloads. I know we still have a lot to talk of and I understand you just can spare a little time with me. But for a girl, with weaken heart in any meaning, I'm broken down easily and I need a lot of your cares. I know I'm not your ideal girl to stand back and support you with this life. That's why it's hard for me to open my mouth ask for anything from you. But, is it my rights to keep your eyes on me?
The last time breaking down makes me realize this distance and this different time zone are the biggest headache for us. The things I can do, are to learn to take care of myself and to ease the wanting of seeing you everyday in my heart.
Somehow this love is painful and tiring for both. Why have you kept trying so hard? Why don't you just simply release yourself?

I don't dare to tell you that... it was because of our talk causing me a break down.
I can't have my peaceful soul to rest well when my heart is full of burdens.
Let just ignore the fact that I need you more...

Valentine's Day

Not so necessary as I love you everyday.
Still... I hope you love my presents :")

Been through the storms...