Pain..

Finally I could fully understand the meaning of this word. For the very first time, I wished I could just die so I wouldn't have to suffer this situation. But I knew I had to get over it since I decided to do it. Simply had to finish what I had started.
His warmth was unable to bare with me. I wanted to hold him tight but I could only hold myself. How others could do it and some even had done it many times, I kept questioning and tears came out non-stop.
I felt guilty but I couldn't start over...